Is she under here?

So I haven't disappeared. I was at a conference this week, and then I have been swamped the rest of this week. I have been emotionally under the weather, but on the bright side of things, I have been using the gym to keep me sane. I think today when I go in to see if I meet my 189 by Halloween goal I may make it! I was at 189.2 Wednesday night, so how easy should it be right? Except that there is sooooo much Halloween candy around, and we are having a spooky potluck at work today.

Shanna, I'm giving you a shout out here right now. I need to email you, yes! I have not been around a computer until yesterday. Ekks. Hope the rest of you are staying sane with all the Halloween candy around. I will try to post more next week. I just don't have the physical time or the emotional energy. I'm swamped and being pulled too many different directions. I've been trying to read your blogs the best I can, but mostly I've been skimming them (did I spell that right?). Have a good weekend all! Happy Halloween.

Awesome workout

Had a great workout this am. The trainer had some new things for me to do, things that looked really hard (and were), but normally, I wouldn't be willing to try them on my own. I couldn't look like a sissy in front of her though. I did it! And it actually wasn't so bad. They were hard, but not so hard I wouldn't have been able to do it without her. Goes to show you shouldn't be so damn scared to try new things. I never would have tried to do some dips (not me in the picture, but damn I'd take her abs any day, and I had my feet different probably in more of a beginner pose) without her encouragement, but they were awesome, and totally not so bad.

Also, all morning she kept asking me if everything was too heavy, and I was feeling like such a wuss. I told her I must just be weak this morning. She says...No, I increased all your weights today, we're moving you on up girl. I was so pumped. Hooray. I'm making progress. I felt so buff and stuff, even though I am still the same person, and I really struggled. It just felt good. Hooray. Now, after all that eating out yesterday, I HAVE to keep calories in check this weekend. Wish me luck!

Trends

As it seems to be a trend for me, I get no workout again today. bummer.

I had to take a dog and cat to the vet this a.m., and I have meetings galore until about 9pm tonight. No fears, I have PT in the morning, so I shall be right back on track. The worst part is that I have to eat two meals out at horrible restaurants today. One Italian, ekkks for calories, not to mention that the food there isn't that great. One is Cajun, but I don't like fish or seafood, so I end up getting chicken, but most of their chicken is fried, so we'll have to see what happens.

I think I'll just order what I want and quit when I'm full, but idk. Ahhhh, all this pressure. Maybe I'll eat what I want for lunch and stick with salad for supper. Seems like a good plan for now. I hate not having a plan, but I may just have to play it by ear. I should have posted earlier so you could have left suggestions before I left. Oh well.

Hope you all have a great day. I'll be out of the office the rest of mine. See you all tomorrow.

Update: I found some chicken at lunch that wasn't fried, it was good but had WAY too much cheese. I normally order my sandwiches without cheese b/c I never miss the cheese, but today it sounded so good and truth be told, it had so much cheese, it ruined the sandwich. Or maybe I'm just not used to it anymore...I had fried onion rings with the sandwich though, no regrets, and they were freaking awesome.

Things that make you go hmmm

HOLY CRAP, I am thinking about going back to school. I have a master's degree for f***s sake. Why would I want to do that? B/c I really don't know if I'm in the right job for me. I am thinking about teaching PE. I may have mentioned this before. It would be a huge pay cute, but what a fun job that would be. Especially if it was elementary. I'm still researching my options, I'm looking at corporate recreation also. Not sure what to think...just something to make me go hmmmm.

My eating has been crappy today, but not so crappy I can't stay within my calorie range. I just need to CHILL right now. Its just after lunch time, and I'm just over 1,000. That is normally where I'm at as I get finished with my afternoon snack. Hmmmm.

Had a great morning workout, but I must have really worked it because I'm super tired this afternoon, that could also be attributed to a blood sugar crash from all the carbs I've eaten today. Hmmmm.

Wondering how many more times I'm going to say it? None, I'm done posting for today, see you tomorrow if I have time!

win it

If I can't someone should..this is so cool! Check out Mizfit's blog today for your chance to win a Lebert Equalizer. That thing is awesome. Too bad we cannot all win one and get in shape, but hey if one of us can get it, hooray, go check it out today.

Relaxed or bitchy

Hmmm, most people think bitchy? The girl who took my blood pressure last night said relaxed. I'd like to think relaxed, maybe I am bitchy. I really don't like my job right now, which leads to bitchiness. My boss asked if I was going to be like this for the next two years until this project was done. I'm not sure if I can stand this project for two years. Maybe that is a sign.

I had a goodish workout this a.m. The PT didn't want to work me very hard because I donated blood last night, but she did work me anyway. I didn't pass out. After we were done, I decided on light cardio...ie, the bike. I didn't feel like anything busy. It took me 60 seconds to decide that sucked, and I wanted to go home, so I went to the locker room to shower, got my shoes off and decided I couldn't possibly quit. So I put them back on and did 20 minutes on the treadclimber. I still didn't want to do the bike. I really just am in a funk. I want to sit in a chair at home and relax! I think I need a vacation. All in all, I got in a good sweat, it was just a mediocre day at the gym, nothing fancy, but enough to say I didn't slack.

Hopefully tomorrow will feel more peppy. I think this weekend was such a let down that I cannot seem to move on...

1700 and Jerk Alert

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly was my alternate title, I think I will blog in that order:

The good: I have decided to try and mix things up by lowering my calorie intake to 1700. I've been at 1800 since I weighed 239 lbs, so it probably wouldn't hurt to try and drop it. I don't know if I'll be able to do it, but it is worth a shot.

The bad: I was horrible this weekend. We ate out every meal, and I had tons of cake, greasy and alcohol. Totally expecting a gain this week. Sunday was okay, I was back on track and did some activity. I'm really eating well again today also.

The ugly: At the bar Saturday night, one of my really good friend's husband met my brother for the first time. His comment to my husband was "How did he get to be the skinny one in the family?" WTF???? I'm really surprised my husband didn't hit him. If I would have known, I probably would have hit him. It's a good thing I didn't know until later. My husband stood up for me, and thankfully did NOT start a barfight. Seriously, this guy is like very overweight himself. And hello, WTF??? Who says that? I'm still not sure if I'm in disbelief or just unbelievably pissed. I haven't said anything to his wife who is one of my good friends because I know it will cause problems, but I know I'm not going to hang out with them anymore b/c of that. What would you do? This is freaking ridiculous. What an ass. I'm so upset. How do you learn to move on when people say shit like that?

Didn't plan on posting today, but how fun is this

Okay, Natalia at Embracing the Weight Loss Journey is playing a game...Her blog says and I quote...

"I saw this easy meme and tagged myself. The rules were to open up the My Pictures section on my computer and post the 4th photo from the 4th folder."

This looked like too much fun! But I cheated and put three pictures because it was my dog folder and I couldn't showcase just one, so you had to see all three of them. So I guess I didn't play fair. It was still a fun game. The top picture was my fourth picture, that is Adio and Corky. Piper is next, then Gus at the bottom (who is much bigger now!).

No workout, not by choice

So, I have two meetings tonight...no workout in my plans, but I will be meeting my PT at 6:30 tomorrow morning for a good workout. And I am breaking my no alcohol rule because it is homecoming in a college town this weekend, and my brother is coming to visit. So, I expect to see a gain next week. DAMN B.

Shit happens. I don't have much more to post. I'm within calories today, really doing well, even saved a lot for a piece of cake tonight at our meeting, that's some planning y'all...

Not sure if I'll check in tomorrow or not, if not have a grand weekend!

50 states, bucket list

Totally excited. So I think I have an uber fun goal that can change a little (with same principle) as I get older, but the hubby and I have made a goal of running a 5K in every state. 50 states, 50 5Ks. Sounds like fun to me. I figure it could be a 10K and count, or whatever, but as long as it is at least an organized 5K with a t-shirt for proof, it counts.

He was on board, and I'm so excited. It could be that we are 60 years old before we can afford to make it to Hawaii, and I'm in no hurry to go back to Alaska it was so darn cold (we'll have to try to go during the summer). But I think this is going to be so much fun. He's got a lot of training to do to catch up. He's naturally thin (stupid men), but he's definitely not in shape, so he'll have to work on it. I think he could run faster, but not that far.

As much fun as this sounds, I'm really dreading the gym tonight. Bla. I'll go though. Because that is what a good little girl should do. I weighed in at 190.1 last night. I half expect to see that number go up tonight. I have had really large suppers the last couple nights sending my calories way over, and you cannot maintain a loss at that rate. My goal for today is to keep my calories in check! I want so badly to get back to 189.0, that is my 50 lb loss spot. So close, yet so far.

quicky

No, I'm not having a quicky, this is a quick post.

I have been uber busy at work. I do not predict this situation to ease up. I do not predict I will be checking in very regularly. Sad thing is, I'd rather read your blogs than update mine. I'm heading to the gym quickly tonight before I go to a meeting at 7:00. I have been asked to sit on the board for our local Humane Society, which is something I feel strongly about. I cannot stand watching animals suffer. I live in rural America, so I still hunt and fish. The Humane Society is the dog pound here in rural America if that means anything. I have adopted all of my animals, unless they were rescued in some other form or fashion, we don't "buy" our animals because we know there are too many out there that need help.

Anyway, that has nothing to do with weight loss, but it is what I am doing tonight right after the gym, so I guess it counts as part of my evening. I have to do gym, that, then supper. I will miss House season opener. Darnit. At least the mom-in-law will be taping Biggest Loser. I need to go so I can check all your blogs. I'll try to post a weigh in tomorrow!

Did It

I did it. I talked myself into a workout yesterday. I couldn't hardly judge the "lazy" folks on BL for having a lack of motivation when I wasn't doing it myself, so I went to the gym. I said I'd just do a half hour of light cardio, but you see other people actually sweating and start to get jealous. It just sort of happens. You start of with a light cardio routine, and before you know it, you just have to go harder, challenge yourself to do more, harder, better. I had a good workout, I only stayed for thirty minutes, but I did a good thirty minutes, AND I'm feel so much better today. I'm so glad I went.

I went back this a.m., and I am done for today. I did a half hour of cardio followed by a half hour of training with my PT. It is always good to be done early on a Friday. That way you can enjoy Friday evening. We are going on a double date tonight with some friends, so I have that to look forward to. I don't ever go to the movies, because truth be told, I'm cheap. Once in a while I guess it is okay to splurge.

Oh, and I guess since I went to the gym last night I have a weigh in to report. It wasn't as big of a loss as I wanted to report, but it is a loss. 191.2-which is done 1 lb from last week, and only 2.2 lbs from my Halloween goal of 189. Hopefully I can stay on track this weekend, but we have a lot planned. Hope you are all doing swell, yup, I just said swell. I need to get to work. Have a great weekend. I have Monday off, so I'll see you all on Tuesday!

Back in the lower 48

So I'm back in Missouri, and I brought a miserable head cold with me! I'm sick as can be, but it doesn't matter because I'm just so happy to be home. I really should go workout after work because I didn't go at all yesterday, but it is so hard to be motivated when your head weighs 170 lbs. I did fairly well with my eating habits during the whole trip I think. I guess we'll see when I get on the scale tonight, if I do decide to go the gym. Otherwise I'll see next week.

It was a long flight back 5.5 hours into Minneapolis, and then another hour to Kansas City, after that, I had a two hour drive home. Talk about jet lag. I got home in time to watch the Biggest Loser. I really don't think this season has been as motivating as season's past. The group just seems to be half assing it, waiting for the weight to come off. Maybe it is just me. I'm slowly motivating myself to go to the gym I guess. I can't really judge everyone on there and sit here and bitch about a head cold.

I'm hoping if I go to the gym it will show my weigh in close to my Halloween goal of 189, so I can start striving towards my Christmas Challenge goals of 175, which seems next to impossible. Well, I'm rambling, so if I would get some work done I could go to the gym, then get out of here so I could go let my mutts run tonight. I'm going to post a picture of me on my harbor tour in Alaska. I had to wear a hard hat and bright jacket. I was a the control of a container ship. I like to pretend to be in control a lot, I suppose a shrink could really analyze the picture if he/she wanted to...

Oh, PS, I think I was called skinny for the first time ever in my life in Alaska, but it was by an old guy and he was just sucking up for no good reason, but I still really enjoyed his style of sucking up. What a nice old man he was.

More

This is the nature trail I walked this morning, and the blue ice below is part of a glacier that broke of and drifted out in the lake.

Pics

Freezing my butt off up north

Alaska is amazing. Except my wifi is messed up and I cannot us my pc, so I'm standing in the hotel lobby right now. This is going to be a super short post. I will try to upload some pictures later if I have a chance, but no promises.

I'm walking a ton! No car, my conference is in a different hotel, plus I am doing a ton of touring. I have been all over Anchorage by way of my little two feet, and I'm still trying to get in my daily cardio at the gym. I'm not counting calories while I'm here, but trying to keep in tune with my bodies needs. I did go overboard tonight at the conference banquet, but not as bad as in the past, and I avoided ALL alcohol even though it was free. Yeah me!

Weird thing about Alaska, they seem to be really limited on fresh fruit and veggies in the restaurants. They can't grow their own stuff, so it all has to be shipped in. It took me two days to find a banana. I almost hugged the server when he said that I could buy two for the road. A cup of fruit and one yogurt cup cost me $8 this morning and the fruit was horrible. Cost of living here is outrageous, but food seems to be the highest. I think they told me a gallon of milk is upwards of $6-$7. I'm from the midwest, a gallon of milk is less than $5. I was shocked. Anyway, I'm on a time limit here in the lobby, I'll work on a couple pics for later!

Hope you are all doing well.

Its Friday (for me kind of)

I leave for Alaska tomorrow. Hooray. I'm really excited, but I need to get my winter coat out tonight. I'm on a really boring conference call right now. We are talking about waste oil burners. I hate the government. They want to have a hand in everything. It is so stupid.

I had a great workout yesterday morning. I haven't been able to use the bathroom without using my PT's name in a sentence with expletives. My legs hurt so bad. I love it. I earned every minute of that pain! I think I will go to the gym for a quick workout after I get done with this "meeting."

I finally got to watch the BL episode last night, and it partially pissed me off, partially made me understand a few things. First of all, I don't think they have lost as much weight this year as past years, but I also don't think they have put the effort into it this year like they have in years past. I have not put effort into my weight loss this year like I did last year, hence I haven't seen the results, hmmmm. Coincidence, I think not. I couldn't believe those people all sat around and took naps. I believe the film editors probably made everyone look lazier than what they truly were, but it made for good tv I suppose. Anywho, I suppose I should get back to paying attention to this call.

Hope you all have a great weekend. I'll try to post pictures of Alaska when I get there! Uploading a random wedding pic, we road off on our Harleys...

very quickly

My legs are jello, thank you personal trainer. And I didn't even have to do lungs across the gym. I hate those.

I am typing really fast because I have got to get to work on balancing the check book while I have a few minutes left before lunch is over. I have a migraine today. Stupid pills. Nah, its not their fault. Life happens sometimes. I forgot my excederin at home. I usually always have some in my purse, but I forgot to restock last night.

Hope you are all doing well. I had a light lunch, but nothing sounded very good. I have been such a sweet freak since I started my new meds. I don't normally need them this badly. I'm also PMSing, just realized that as I was typing this. Ding, the light clicks on...

I cannot wait to go watch BL that the mother in law taped for me last night. I was too busy traveling back from the little brother's football game, which they lost, horribly btw (66-0). Little bro did awesome though, 2 great catches and an interception, plus he's the kicker and did an outstanding job at that. Such is life, you win some, you lose some. Have a great day all.