Graduated!

Hey everyone! I finally graduated. Hooray. I don't have a lot to post right now, I'm busy trying to learn how to tweet today. I'm such a nerd. Thanks for inviting me Shanna!

I'll put pictures up sometime next week, and type a weight loss update. Right now I just wanted to thank everyone for their support. Let me know if you tweet so I can add you. I'm such a nerd!

3 Weeks Left

Is it possible? Only three weeks left? I don't have a job yet, which is super scary, but I'm not allowing myself to panic yet.

I have so much I want to gush about, but most of it is not great news on the diet front. I have slacked a bit since out PT has been done, and my eating has been OUT OF CONTROL. I updated my ticker today, but I'm not sure if it is right or not.

The good news is, I'm heading to the gym in about a half hour, and I'm uber pumped about it. I will begin my daily weigh ins again tomorrow. I cannot believe I let myself quit caring. I don't mind not tracking my weight, but I have been out of control on letting myself slip. I am more concerned about my health and well being and future job now than looking great, but truth is, looking great is an added bonus.

Hopefully I'll be able to post more regularly when life slows down a bit. I miss everyone so much. Have a great day everyone. Feels good to vent this to you all, I feel like I can have a fresh start this afternoon now that I have cleared my slate.

TASER, TASER

Almost Done

HEY EVERYONE! I appologize for the extreme absense. I cannot say that it is going to get much better for a few weeks at least. I only have five weeks of the academy left and I'm sooooo excited. I'm still gainfully unemployed though and that is a bummer.

I have totally loved my experience, and I want to thank all of you who helped push me to make this decision. I have never had so much fun in my life.

My workouts were very regular until about two weeks ago, and I have dropped about ten more pounds putting me in the 179ish area. I have been fluctuating, but that is pretty close for now. I have been bad on food and workouts for about two weeks, so I need to quit being lax and get back in the groove.

My last day of PT is this coming Wednesday, so I need to get focused and on track to avoid slipping backwards. Shouldn't be too bad.

I have taser video I'll try and download this morning. I sound like I have turret's syndrome in it. I hope you don't think less of me when you watch it, I assure you that I don't normally talk like that, and it was completely involuntary.

Thanks everyone for checking on me. I really appreciate all of your support!

1/3 of the way there

I've finished 8 weeks of the academy. That is one-third of the way. I can definitely feel the effects mentally and physically of everything they have put us through this far, and it seems to only get harder. I know it is all for a good reason though, and I'm staying positive. It has been a wild ride, that is for sure!

Weight Loss: I updated my stats today. 185 (although the scales reads lower some days, I think this is probably most accurate). I haven't really established a goal weight, which is hard for me mentally right now. I haven't been thinking about weight loss a lot lately. I'm still doing the challenge at my gym, so I figure that I should probably think about it more. My true downfall is the food. I'm getting PLENTY of exercise, but my calories are almost always over 2,100 a day. I really need to aim for about 1800 with my level of activity to see good loss in my opinion, so that is for me to work on (but not today, I have a birthday party, yum cake). Although, I gave up chocolate and candy for lent, so it will be my luck that the cake will be chocolate, I may save the calories without even trying!

**I have to tell you all that I did NOT test out on my first physical test try, I was devastated. I only did 18 pushups then I was DQ'd for putting my foot in the wrong position. I also missed my 300 meter dash by 1 second. BUT I did score a good score on my mile and a half, and got third highest in my class for doing 60 situps in two minutes...that felt good.

I wish I could post more often, but it seems to be tough to get time. I like to read everyone's blogs before I get on an post something, but I was lucky to get that done today! Hope you are all staying positive. I will be thinking as positively as possible as I do push-ups for you all, hoping not to get DQ'd again!

finally

Well, I think you are all aware at this point that my time online is always limited, so checking in on all of you (and myself) has been hard! I do have a couple minutes to write you all a good post though.

Weight loss: I have had some since I started the academy. I haven't been on the scale this week, so I cannot tell you how much exactly. I know I'm at or below pre-Christmas weight, which is thrilling to me because it was the 50 lb mark, I hated yo-yoing on that line. Exercise has been good, not that I have a choice at this point, but eating has been not so good. That saying about how poor people make worse food choices because that is what is cheapest seems to be ringing true in my life. When you get to a electric OR water, phone OR insurance point in your life, which do you pay first? Food becomes the LAST thing in the budget, which means we are eating as much free stuff as possible. Free stuff is bad carb, sugary JUNK. I'm doing my best to stay smart, but if I want to eat, I may not have a choice. Not a sob story, just how it is...

The academy is going well. Academically I am doing fine, physically, I thought I would perform better than I am, but I'm not doing terrible. The fighting/defensive portion is hardest for me. I am not hands on, I don't fight (they had to teach me to punch this week, really)...I always add an extra please when giving demands, please get down on the ground doesn't sound very authoritative. So that has been the biggest struggle. BUT, I'm five weeks down 18 to go, so that is almost 1/4 of the way through.

Thanks for all of your warm thoughts and wishes. I miss you all. I'll try to post a picture of my new hair cut. It is so short because it had to be off the collar. I got really tired of the bun. We had to run stairs the other day with a sandbag over our shoulders, every time I got it around my neck, my ponytail would get caught under the sandbag, making it very hard to look down. I chopped my hair off THAT NIGHT. It is cute, but short! Keep your head up everyone. I'll do the same!

Holy Crap I miss you all

Hey everyone. I'm still alive, and still running. These people are kicking my butt. I am totally missing you all and hope to put a real post down this weekend! I'll try to check in then too! Will run for you!